I applied for a counseling session crying all over after I developed post traumatic stress, 

but I didn't take counseling thinking that I could overcome the difficulty on my own. 

I was covered all over with wounds in both my body and mind after 3 years of wasting time 

when I finally decided to take the treatment program at KIP. 

I realized that all my efforts to return things back to normal only aggravated my pain and difficulty. 

Now, burning rage has subsided and I don't travel between heaven and hell in a second upon a word of my husband's. 

I know the cause of all my pain was the wrongdoing of my husband, who was I trusted, 

but it was myself who generated anger and rage inside me, which brought me sown to the lowest point. 

Now, I can view what has happened and what I feel separately. 

At first, I tenaciously sought for interrogations and attacks, which only grew my wounds. 

Now, my husband tries to talk to me first and defend himself. 

I try to compensate for my inappropriate responses and confrontations by treating myself and building inner strength. 

I make myself strong through therapeutic tasks. I hope others will also spend their time for themselves instead of wasting it for meaningless fight. 

My husband is the one who loved me and chose me. 

I will be happy again as a wife and mother when I can stand up straight and healthy. 

I stopped preparing for a lawsuit and take time to look upon myself for how I am doing with the treatment. 

I want to get myself back before I completely collapse.

Rage is gradually subsiding little by little. I watch a soap opera that shows people having affairs and I feel numb for a moment. 

Then, I resume therapeutic tasks. I hope I will be a happier person in the next review. 

Stay happy and healthy, everyone.